All I want for Christmas is my...

I kept telling everyone that all I wanted for Christmas was to be expecting a little one (or ones!)! As each Sunday passed, our preacher talked about the four candles of Advent. The first was Hope and his message was about living a life of extravagant hope! My transfer date was December 1st and my blood test was the Thursday after the extravagant Hope message. As much as I wanted to protect myself from feeling disappointment, I was hopeful that I was carrying my gift! A few days after the positive blood test (with very high hormone levels), I began to spot. The next Sunday's message was about extravagant peace. If the last year of my life has taught me nothing else, I have learned that God's peace is all that truly soothes an aching soul. I trusted that my prayers for a peaceful few days until the sonogram would help me through my fear of disappointment. The third Advent candle and message was about extravagant joy! That Friday I saw my two little active babies and heard both of their heartbeats...extravagant joy indeed! The last message of the holiday season and last advent candle is love...extravagant love. I know what it is like to see a child who mirrors who I am. I already feel so much love for the twins that my chest aches! I am enjoying every queezy and exhausting moment of growing these two!